Monday, December 29, 2008

What have I done to deserve this...


I do not understand what I have done to deserve the things that have happened in my life.
I became a Widow a couple years ago, I am raising 3 older children on my own - who do nothing to help me ( my youngest is trying her hardest to help), but the other 2 are very selfish, and do nothing to help me on an everyday bases. They do not work, help pay bills they jack up, they do not keep the house clean, they eat all my food, I just want to scream.
I lost my sister/ my best friend in 2000 because of cancer.
I am barley getting buy, I work from pay check to pay check, I feel overwhelmed on a daily bases.
Trying to keep myself a float, I am getting tired.
My spouse of 23 yrs, was an Alcoholic, there were good times and bad times, every day not knowing if the rug was going to pulled out from under me everyday. That it self is very stressful,
never knowing who you are going to wake up to Jekyll or Hyde.
The one thing I will say, i am a survivor, I became a stronger person for it, but just want calmness, piece, happiness and love and support.

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