Single and Confused

Well it has been 1yr and 8months, of being single. I really did not think it would be this hard to find someone.

Reality has hit me, yes it is this hard.....where do you go, how do you do it, where do you start, these are questions I do not have answers to.

You know the saying "nice girls finish last", it seems to be a true statement.I am one of those nice girls and I do feel as though I am finishing last. How can you compete with those women who you feel are prettier, younger, firmer, and with less baggage as the saying goes. But I love my baggage (my children), and everyone of those stretchmarks I recieved caringing them.

I find know that men want to be PLAYERS, feel as though they still have what it takes to get the women, and have no strings in a relationship, to do what or who they please, just to stay young, and not realizing that there will be a time in life when they will not have what it takes anymore to get the ladies, and end up alone, WITH NO ONE TO LOVE THEM.

I am not the type of person who flirts, I am the quiet one. I am shy. I realize that is my biggest problem, but how do you change who you have been all your life. You can't , because if you do change you do not feel as though you are you anymore, you are pretending to be someone you are not, and I can not do that just to get a man's attention. I refuse to play games, I will not be someone I am not.

So you feel as though you are on a double edge sword, DAM. You can't win for loosing.Either way you feel like you loose. If you do not play the game - you loose, if you are not the real you - you loose. So how do you win in the end.